GDW Family,
I need your prayers. I am going through a battle. This battle has slowly becoming an all out war, where since I have open Pandora's box to this war, the enemy has been attacking me at all ends. The spirit of procrastination, sadness, loneliness, frustration, tiredness and my FINANCES – a HUGE dark cloud has been over my finances. I am praying for deliverance of these evil spirits and praising God for my finances to be renewed as well as NEW EMPLOYMENT.

My heart has been broken and I have been silently hurting for some time. I have tried not to speak or think about it. When anyone asks about me, I just say "I'm blessed", put a smile on my face and move to the next subject. My friends and family don't know what is going on. I am a master of utopia impressions. (HOWARD IF YOU READ THIS - I told you that I understand what you are going through)

In the meantime, I have been booking myself like crazy. Taking on so many projects, helping others, doing more within the church, seeking god and by the end of the day I am a complete mess. Sometimes I forget my own name or even worse I finding myself so bitter about "love" – I know this is the enemy! GOD loves me unconditionally.

I have been so mad at myself for allowing the enemy to get to me, yet I AM DETERMINE TO PRAISE MY WAY THROUGH! I know that God has so many things in store me and I thank him for opening unforeseen doors. I have the victory! I am calling my GDW family to pray for me (I need back up! – I need soldiers that can help me win this battle). I thank God for each and every one of you.

Thank You.
Have a blessed prosperous day!
Nicole (NB)
God IS Excellent!

Nicole -

Please do not become bitter about love. God in His purest form is love. He loves you. I love you. We all love you. You need to know that you are loved.

It is your heart Nicole, not your finances that are hurting. I suspect that the finances are simply a side-effect of the real problem.

Nicole, first of all. It is ok to hurt. To cry, scream, be angry and upset. It is ok. But honestly, God allows these things to occur in our lives to draw us closer to Him. He allows the bad to go to worse to go to impossible so that we will come to the end of ourself and realize that He is our provider, our protector and our shield. Even when it seems like clouds are all around us, He is still there...in the clouds. It has to be true Nicole because His Word said that He will never leave us or forsake us.

Nicole, I wish I was there to simply hold you, let you cry, pray with you and encourage in knowing that everything will become better. It will Nicole, you have to believe,even when you don't feel like it; don't see it; absolutely know for sure it won't be....IT WILL BE. I know the plans I have for you says the Lord, plans not to harm you but to give you a better life. It's true Nicole, it is!!!!

I encourage you Nicole, to ask God for prayer warriors you can trust to pour your heart out to. These need to be people who are strong in the faith and will come along side you no matter the time of day or night. They need to be able to pray with you and speak truth into your life even when you do not want to hear it. They need to be dedicated to helping you get through even when it means you facing issues about yourself that may be hard. You need to remain teachable and open to the things God has for you during this healing time as well. IT will hurt a great deal. But with the healing comes tremendous peace and joy.

Nicole, please take the high road, the narrow path.....it will be one of the hardest things that you will do, but God will meet you there. HE will I promise you.

Stop running from the hurt and the pain by making yourself overly busy. That will do nothing but tire you out, allow Satan to come in and play games with your mind and hurt you physically. You do not deserve this treatment. You are a child of God!!!! Instead, embrace the pain my dear sister. I know that it sounds crazy, but it is true. At times it will seem it is unbearable. But God promises that He will put nothing in our lives that we cannot bear and when tempted to run, He will provide a better way of escape for you. Run to Him Nicole, not in your own strength, but in your weakness. Embrace Him, He is the one who is strong.

You need to forgive yourself too Nicole. You are not at fault. You hold some responsibility; but it is not your fault. Do not fall for the blame game. Do not ask yourself WHY!!! It will drive you crazy. Instead ask God, what it is He needs to show you in this circumstance that you need to learn from.

Nicole, I cannot walk this road for you. But I can be there supporting you through prayer, encouragement, and love. I am there for you in spirit my friend as is many of your GDW family. And we are your family Nicole. We are and love you very much.

You are an awesome woman of God. You have been a tremendous source of support and encouragement to me as I walk this journey as well. I haven't thanked you for caring and being there for me. Thank you. I care and appreciate your loving support tremendously. You are a great and wonderful person full of Godly giftings and fruit. This is only a season for you and you will grow stronger from this and become even a more Godly woman. God is so proud of you. So am I.

Nicole, if you need me, I'm here for you. Just leave word. I will check the board often. It is the very least I can do for you after all you have done for me.

Continue to pray, praise and love God with your whole heart. Remind Him and yourself that you trust Him through this even thought you don't understand it right now. You are going to get through this Nicole. You are more than a conquerer through Christ!!! Amen!!!

Hang in there. Know that you are loved and appreciated!! Continue to give God the glory.

Father -

I lift Nicole to you. Wrap your arms around here and let her sense you with her. Guide her Lord and help her to always remember that it is your word that is the lamp onto her feet and light unto her path. It will guide her, lead her, preserve her, mend and heal her, build her up in her most holy faith. Lord remind her ofter of who she is in Christ and what a tremendous woman of God she is. Never let go of her hand as she walks through this and give her prayer warriors and support to help as well. She loves you God and trusts you. We thank you for this opportunity to grow deeper in you. Let Nicole know we love her. Thanks God, you are the best. Amen!!

Love you my sister,
Howard

Heavenly father,
I come boldly to your throne of grace thanking you right now for my sister Nicole. Lord not only am I thanking you for my sister Nicole, but father I am thanking you in advance for what you're doing in her life. Master we thank you that the enemy has not won – master we thank you that we are more than survivors but we are conquers. Lord I ask that we look to you forever and anything. Amen

Nicole -

I was praying and reviewing some of Steve T.'s recent messages. The last three in particular are excellent and may give you some wonderful insight and encouragement. Those messages are "Trust While We Soar", "Loving Hands of Discipline" and "Into the Storm". They may be a bit painful to read right now, put I encourage you to read and reread them, meditate on them and don't try to absorb all of it at one time. Let them soak into your spirit and give the Holy Spirit a chance to speak to your spirit. It is going to get better and you are going to become an even stronger woman of God through this.

Know that you are on my mind and I have been lifting you up to the Father. He is so good. He will see you through this.

Hope you are having a good day.

Howard

Tanya and Howard,
I thank you for your prayers and your support. As I am sitting at my desk with tears flowing down my face, I thank you for your prayers. I know that I can't hide my feelings. I thank God for allowing me to have such a great support with my GDW family especially since my family is not Christian and are very negative towards me progressing in the life as well as in the Lord.

It has been so hard to be everything to everyone. I hide this pain because I have gotten so good at hiding pain and hurt for many years. God is so awesome. I know that he has so much in store. I have called out for his strength and his love. I trust God and believe in his every word. He is the supplier of all my desires, my needs. Sometimes, I just don't understand why others don't love me. Yet, I am strong because Christ loves me.I love the Lord so much.

Howard,
You have been such an inspiration to me. I thank God for the many blessings that he has bestowed upon you. I thank you for lifting me up. Your encouragment is more than words can express.

Tanya,
Thank you again for all your prayers. I have been praying for you during my intimate time with the Lord. Your safety has meant so much to me. I keep pleading the blood of your life. I know that God has his loving arms around you.

Take care. YOu are in prayers.
Have a blessed prosperous day,
XOXOX
Nicole (NB)

Nb,

You have a great heart! The Lord knows your situation and loves your heart.

Heavenly Father,
We remember that Your blessings brings wealth, and You add no trouble to it.There is surely a future full of hope and may NB'S PATH BE FULL OF PROSPERITY AND VISION. MAY YOU OPEN THE DOORS WHICH HAVE CLOSED.

Open the eyes of her families heart that they would receive you into there lives and minds. Thank you Lord for allowing us to lift up your daughter in prayer!

May you allow the Lord to shine through you so others would feel the presences of the Lord. Keep shining on!

Nb,
I found this prayer that my also bless your soul!

FINANCIAL PRAYER BLESSING

Heavenly Father, Most Gracious and Loving God, I pray to you that you abundantly bless my family and me. I know that you recognize, that a family is more than just a mother and father, sister and brother, husband and wife, but all who believe and trust in you. Father, I send up a prayer request for financial blessing for not only the person who sent this to me, but for me and all that I have forwarded this message on to. And that the power of joined prayer by those who believe and trust in you, is more
powerful than anything. I thank you in advance for your blessings.

Father GOD, deliver the person reading this right now from debt and debt burdens. Release your Godly Wisdom that I may be a good steward over all that GOD has called me to be in my financial Blessings. Father, for I know how wonderful and mighty you are and how if we just obey you and walk in your word and have the faith of a mustard seed that you will pour out
blessings. I thank you now Lord for the recent blessings I received and for the blessings yet to come because I know you are not done with me
yet. In Jesus Name, I pray, Amen.

God Bless you my sister!!

Dear Nicole,

I thank The Lord for you. You belong to Him. You love Him and He is aware of the quality of your heart. You're being given the opportunity of enjoying spiritual richness while lacking material ressources. You're drawing as close to Him as never before because you're being prepared to inherit abundance in order to bless others. The Bible testifies of many Men and Women of God who were taught to be trusted in abundance after learning to stay faithful in poverty. Keep on seeking the Truth from above because our Heavenly Father knows already what you need.
It's great to be taught and corrected by God Himself. It's a sign that you dwell in His Kingdom and your name is written in the Book of Life.
Dear God,
Bless our sister Nicole more and more each day. Sustain her faith and strength until the time You chose to reveal how much You love her. Bless many other of Your children through the Temple of Faith that she is. Prepare her to give powerful testimonies for Your Glory. Purify this vessel of Your Grace who shall bring honour to your Kingdom. In the Name of Jesus, Amen.

Nicole,

I don't know very much about your situation, but I do know that Adonai does not want you to continually suffer with hurt and pain from past or present experiences. Rather than bury it deep within you, He wants to gently root it out. It is like a weed growing in this lovely garden of yours.

Father,

I pray there will come a time that Nicole will grow even stronger in You and where there was once hurt and pain, it will all have vanished away. We know there will always be painful experiences for us to walk through because pain is a part of life, but I pray your Holy Spirit will protect Nicole as she walks in the light of Your love. I ask that You walk beside her in these times of difficulty and show her the love of a Father. Help her come face to face with her feelings and know that she has inner strength as well as Your strength to overcome any negative emotions. Holy Father, I pray You will breathe words of life into Nicole to let her know how very much You love her, for You roam the earth seeking those who have a heart for You. May her love be found in You most of all. In the precious name of Jesus, our Savior we pray. Amen.

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Hey Nicole -

Just checking up on you. And as I scan down through all of the posts my heart rejoices to see just how very much you truly are loved. What a blessing God is showering upon you right now. It is a hard thing discovering that not everyone will love you or love you forever. Especially when all your life that is what you have craved more than anything. But we cannot find the love the truly satisfies through man. That love only comes from God Himself. HE loves you Nicole. I know that you are going to grow tired of hearing it but He does.

Father,

Right now I ask in the name of Jesus that you supernaturally wrap your arms around Nicole. She needs a touch Lord, a physical touch from you. Let her know you are there Father. Give her a true sense of peace and joy that only can be found in you. She loves you so very much. I know you love her too. Take special care of her and let her know that her feet are set on the rock. May she get some much needed sweet sleep tonight Father and let her rise up refreshed and rested.

Thanks Papa! I love you too! In Jesus' name.

Howard

Nicole
You are on my list for prayer. Even Jesus often retreated to a quiet place to spend time alone with the Father to pray and be ministered to. Don't think you are any different. We all need to do that and get refreshed and encouraged and grow closer with God. I pray for your peace and deliverence from all your fears as you learn to trust Him more. May He give you gladness for gloom and faith for fear. "Put on the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness" I pray that you will not lack any good thing.(Psalm 34) May His spirit uplift you and restore your joy.

Nicole,

My heart breaks for you because unfortunately I have experienced a similar situation. I am learning to place my trust in God even more than I thought was possible. On my good days i praise Him and on my bad days I praise Him even more.

Please know that you have been added to my prayer list.

Oh My GDW Family,
I appreciate your prayers and words of encouragement. I am truly overwhelmed on how much strength you guys have given me. I apologize for just now responding but I had to take a couple of days to regroup. My body was feeling wore down and this "trying to keep myself busy thing" just took a toll on me.

The power of prayer and praise is amazing. God is so amazing. I had to make a commitment to myself, which I have never done before. I was holding on to the past. I was busy asking questions like "Why is it that I can give love, but love isn't being reciprocated." or blaming myself for even opening my heart in the first place. Better yet, finding myself becoming bitter as well as allowing Satan to come to whisper "Man will always leave you."

Nonetheless, the Lord is good. He reminded me that my faith in people gets me in trouble. Not my heart. My faith belongs to him, He is a jealous God. YET- HE IS AN AWESOME GOD! I am taking it day- by- day but I put my trust and my deliverance in Him. He is my light! My earth, my beginning and the end and I will praise him all the days of my life! I know that I have a ministry within – with every circumstance and situation I just ask for deliverance, restoration and for God to do a New thing within me so that I can be a faithful humble servant.

Howard,
Thank you my brother for checking on me... Lord knows I need it! You are a true gift from God in my life. I too had the opportunity to go over Psalm 23 over and over again – until tears ran down my face. Please

Shawn T., John T., Jorge, Grace & Faith, Praise Him, Chelki and Tanya:

I thank you for blessing me with your words and wisdom. You all mean so much!!!!! It is best to hear the truth from God's faithful vessels – even when it hurts, but has is giving me so much strength that words can't even describe .You are all on my pray list.

Shawn T. – Thank you for your message today. It really it home.
John T. – Thank you for the financial prayer- LORD knows I NEED IT
Jorge – the new buyer is on their way. Hold fast. Be still. Don't make any sudden moves. God has the situation in control.
God Bless and have a prosperous day! Love you all!
XOXOX
Nicole (NB)

ALELUYA!!!
Dear Nicole,
I also wept while reading your latest post. The Lord is with you. His Annointing has reached You. Praise His Name and enjoy His Blessings.
Jorge S.

Dear Nicole:

I will join your platoon of prayer warriors. As you know my home sale (or lack thereof) is a weight around my neck, so I can share your pain.
We had 1 person at our open house yesterday and they were "just looking" so my frustration continues!! But as I was exercising last night a kind of revalation came to me which does not help my immediate situation - but it puts things in perspective, and if I may, I will share it with you. First, although you and I (and all the folks on this message board) have needs, which which are important and seem critical to us, but in the scheme of the universe, are they really important to HIM ?? Now we all believe that God is all knowing and he hears all our prayers, even yours and mine. However, maybe today, he is busy protecting our troops in Iraq, or helping the grieving people of Florida clean up and bury their dead, or comforting the children in the Sudan who are covered with flies and dying by the thousands daily from malnutrition!! When I think of that, I almost am almost ashamed to ask God to sell my house for me!! But then the second part of my epiphany hit me. Yes, God will help me, but I must help too. He showed me that I need to do a flyer, call other realtors, post notices in local churches about my house etc, etc. In other words, to quote an old axiom...
"God helps those who help themselves." I still know he will help me in the sale of my house for he is good and gracious. But I have become more engaged too. So even though I don't know the details of your financial crisis.. my question to you is this -- Have you asked the Lord - the all knowing and wise one - to show you the way to help yourself to do more to alleviate your problem? Pray thay he "shows you the way" but don't expect him to do it for you.

Dear Jesus, I ask you to be with Nicole today open her heart and mind to hear any advice that you may whisper in her ear. Help her to take charge of her financial life, energize her into action. Also Lord, soften the hearts of her creditors to give her more time, or to lessen or forgive some of her debts ( as you forgive our sins against you ). Jesus you gave up everything for us, teach us to be patient and understand, that all things happen in YOUR time, not ours.
Amen

Hi Nicole!

So glad to hear that you are starting to get some much needed rest. I found that in particular, when I was physically tired is when I was prone to be attcked by my own thoughts, concerns, worries and cares. It is so very hard to shake all of that when you have been crushed. But I always prayed and praised God for what He was doing in my life before I would put my head on the pillow. Even though I didn't see it or understood it. Part of my prayer was to always release a garrison of angels around my heart and mind to protect me while I was sleeping. As I was faithful in that, Nicole an incredible thing happened for me. When I would wake up, I would always wake up praying. It was a tremendous blessing for me and gave me reassurance that even in sleep a spiritual battle rages, God was there with me, protecting me from myself and the enemy.

It takes time Nicole (this was another word of wisdom that I quickly grew tired of hearing) for the sting and hurt to leave. But, if you draw near to Him, He promises He will draw near to you.

God showed me in my case that my heart had a serious gaping wound. And like any wound, the healing process takes time. LIke after wound, it getting sore and touchy before the healing is complete. But little by little the pain goes and the would is restored. Time can actually be a friend to you in this process Nicole. If you chose to walk the high path. I will tell you though, I beleive it is the more costly road in that you expose so much more of yourself to God and allow Him to heal more than the original hurt. For me, it required "additional surgery" in that He showed (and is still showing) me other areas that need dealt with as well. This means more cutting, more soreness, pain and hurt, but then comes the healing. PRAISE GOD!!!

One of the most important lessons for me to learn was that I could not put all of the blame on my spouse. I had responsibility in the relationship too and there were obviously things I need to work on to. I did not make the decision for my spouse, but I allowed other things (warning signs) to occur and not respond to them. But, Nicole all of this comes with time.

Nicole, I am so very proud of you and encouraged by your progress. You need to know that you are a survivor, a conquerer and a child of God. No weapon formed against you shall prosper Nicole. We are awesome to God and He loves you and is so very pleased with you.

Keep it up. Keep praying and giving yourself over completely to God. And know too that God is going to use this experience for you to minister to others. That doesn't seem exciting to you right now. But God has something wonderful in store for you.

Take care, know that I am praying and thinking of you my sister. I love ya!!!

Howard

OK Howard - you can't keep giving me these inspirational messages. I am crying like a baby here...... .

You are right. I am accepting my responisbility in all of this mess, and this is a part of my fustration and hurt. The warning signs that I tell others to be aware of ..yet, here I am not seeking my FATHER, for discernment. Time will heal. Time is my friend. I know in my heart that God is growing and growing and growing within me every moment of every day. This too shall pass.

Howard, God's strength is so amazing. I know that his plan for my life is an awesome one, even though I am not quite sure what it is. His love and faithfulness is enough for me to seek him. The peace and comfort that he has given me thus far is more than words can even describe. I thank him for allowing his angels to fight my battles when I feel like my energy is too low. I truly am blessed!

I am blessed that the LORD is with me always. I am blessed that he allows me to have a connection with you. I am grateful for your prayers and words of encouragement. (STOP MAKING ME CRY!)

Thank you again, my brother, for you prayers. Please continue to have me in your prayers, you are definitely in mine .

God Bless! Have a prosperous blessed day!
XOXOXO
Nicole B. (NB)

Nicole -

Sorry about the tears. But they help the healing process and let your know that God is touching your heart. What a great thing.

You sound great today and I praise God for that. I can sense that God is doing an awesome work in you!!! Keep hanging in there my friend. God is doing an awesome work in you.

YOur victory is here and I am so excited for you. Your love of Christ and willingness and teachable spirit will get you far towards your complete healing.

I praise God for you and this situation. Because you are going to be blessing beyond your wildest dreams.

Have a super day! You are being prayed for!!!

Yours in Christ -

Howard