Hello Everyone,

Do you ever feel overly emotional? I recently had many events that have caused my normal overly emotional self to go far beyond into overdrive. I thank God for this ministry and pray for everyone who was brave enough to let others read into their lives.
I am in much need of assistance, wisdom, and strength. My sister was recently charged with a felony for grand theft. My family is strong and we stuck together but my sister was living a life style very far from God and I am not sure if she did or didn't commit the crime. She recently accepted Jesus into her life as her personal savior, I pray for her and I hope you guys may pray for her too.
My ex-boyfriend told me some very hard truths over these past few days. I am still very much in love with him. We both made many mistakes and we hurt each other very much, but we remain in contact and we love each other very much, however he says he doesn't feel the way he used to about me. He told me some really hard truths about some of the things that went on while we were together and when we were apart (not talking) to each other. It hurts a great deal to think all those things happened. He cheated on me several times, I cheated on him once. I "forgave" him and I am still totally in love with him, but I want God to be in control and I am tired of taking that control away from Him. I want more than anything for us to be together because I just know in my heart he is the "one" for me, but I want to have a forgiving heart because when the time comes, I want to be ready with a whole healthy heart, not one full of bitterness, anger and frustration. I cry a lot. I whole lot. It is a pain I have never felt before. I know I hurt him, I regret it, I made some REALLY really bad choices and I am really really sorry for them. I sometimes think I haven't really forgiven myself for what I did. Now that I know much more about what he did and when he did it I am saddened and have a heavy heart. I still am very much in love with him and have no doubt that he is the "one" but I am hurting, really hurting. I want answers, now! So I pray for patience, understanding, compassion, a forgiving heart and direction.

I thank all of you who are praying for me.

God Bless,
A

Hi Cristinita,

U have many burdens however there is nothing impossible for the Lord to deal with. It is very hard to be given hard truth however we must be careful that we don't accept interpretation as truth. I am getting a not now for this man and you...just are u r seeing that ur life is not right, this man will do that too.

I feel for u because I was delivered out of a relationship last year and it was extrememly painful. I chose the Lord and rested, fasted and prayed in him. Actually became so insaitable for him, not only did I had to give up this relationship which was not right, I had to give up Uni too, which I love writing and so I had to give up that dream of being an author in a secular world.

Guess what the Lord has shown me it was too small for what he has planned, his future was much more awesome. Just as u r in this pain over this man, I have been too...and the Lord used me to reach him, this man is leading a self destructive life I could not follow him and neither could I do this for my son.

Anyway the Lord showed this is my husband and we r to reconcile, however not yet in 70 weeks...I find this encouraging, I can deal with this, just when I thought I had lost this man...the Lord has shown me different. What is hard he lives 500 metres away from me...and has to pass my house to go into town or out of town...I can see his house from my house, so u can imagine how difficult it can be and to also feel him...In the mean time we work for the Lord and if I hadn't heeded that call I would not be hear writing to you or I would not have helped others, now would the Lord have given my my spiritual gifts etc...

U can't always tell what is around the corner...the Holy Spirit is praying at present while I am typing this...She is in his hands and I stand with u in agreement that she remains in his hands, under his protection and guidance.

Also Psalm 102 is for you, also Psalm 51...it is time to get serious in the Lord, it is time to shift focus off your ex boyfriend and on to Christ where it needs to be. On the weekend I was feeling a lot emotional, angry and had all these storms out of it came this writing piece...it is time to ask the Lord to quieten ur storms so u may rest in him, in Jesus name....

Jesus Came and Calmed the Storms

“On the evening of that same day Jesus said to his disciples, “Let us go across to the other side of the lake”. So they left the crowd; the disciples got into the boat in which Jesus was already sitting, and they took him with them. Other boats were there too. Suddenly a strong wind blew up, and the waves began to spill over the boat, so that it was about to spill over with water. Jesus was in the back of the boat, sleeping with his head on a pillow. The disciples woke him up and said, “Teacher, don’t you care that we are about to die?”

Jesus stood up and commanded the wind, “Be quiet!” and he said to the waves, “Be still!” The wind died down, and there was a great calm. Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Why are you frightened? Have you still no faith?” But they were terribly afraid and said to one another, “Who is this man? Even the wind and the waves obey him!”. Matt 4:35-41

Sometimes in our lives the storms come, no amount of reading, teaching, scripture, prayer, truth prepares us for the surprising storms that appear. At times we are unable to stop those storms, we forget or get frozen with fear and our minds go blank. We can become angry or frightened or fear that we are losing control, we can begin to doubt who we are in Christ, lose our faith, strength and courage as those storms seem too big to handle. Storms from screaming children, difficult people & circumstances, hostile environments, illness, worry, stress, debt, burdens etc.. that don’t seem to go away just build up. Just like the disciples realised that they were not prepared for that storm, we can also realise in the midst we are unprepared when the strong winds begin to blow and shake our home.

The disciples knew that they couldn’t quieten that storm on their own, only Jesus could still those waters. Just as the Lord quietened that storm, so he can quieten the storms in our life and within us by his presence. We need the presence of the Lord in our lives, to nourish, sustain, help, grow, guide, hide, bring us to rest and still the raging waters. We don’t need to react all we need to remember is to ask the Lord for his presence in our lives to quieten the storms in Jesus’ name and he will quieten down our storms and the rest we find in his presence is like soothing balm amidst the turmoil.

Love and blessings in the Lord,

Serenity

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Cristianita - You say you want God to be in control and then you say that you want more than anything to be with this man. I humbly suggest that the two desires may be incompatible. Your relationship began in a manner not honoring to God. He may lead the two of you back together, but He most likely desires you to go in a completely different direction. I suggest that you cut off all communication with this man for an extended season so you can truly hear where God is leading. If He then leads you back together you must make an uncompromising commitment to renew the relationship in a manner which is honoring to God with Jesus Christ as the absolute center.

You will never regret a path which honors God!

cristinita
I am praying for your sister and family. I pray that she turns to God's word and learn to trust and obey it and be filled with the Spirit of God and be led of Him in making choices. I pray for your family to all be strong and trust God. Renew your mind daily with God's word, the bible. It will help you keep your mind on the Lord and His answers for your life. It will also bring faith and wisdom. I pray for God to give you wisdom and guidance. Remember to praise and be thankful to Him and spend time with him reading his word. I kind of think that God may be putting distance between you and your boyfriend because He has a better person for you. "Jeremiah 29:11 says " for I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope, says the Lord" I pray that you will feel God's presense and love toward you and your sister and make the choice to follow Christ in faith and obedience and you will have an abundant life.