Hello family,
I need your prayers. I have not been reading my word like I should. I am not focus like I should on Christ. In addition to my time with the Lord, I am not eating properly nor am I getting proper rest. I have gained some weight, because I am not working out. I am disappointed in myself at present. Please pray for me to be more discipline in my time with the Lord first and foremost. Then pray that I am focus on my purpose, my goals, and my health. I feel like I am growing distant from the Lord and I do not like the feelings I am feel. Please family pray for me.

Also, I have a sinus infection and the Lord sent me to a wonderful hospital for treatment so I ask that you touch in agree with me regarding my overall health.

Thank you and God bless each and every one of you!

Tanya,
I stand in agreement with you. Please don't be disappointed in yourself. Now, since you know that you have not been giving the Lord the proper time, then work on it on a daily basis. God will not give you more than you can handle. When we, as his children, allow outside influences to come into our spirit, then we open the door of opportunity for other things to follow. Yet don't feel disappointed, he is still faithful, truthful and he loves you. YOu are his daughter. Just like any parent, God will chastize you, HE will reveal to you your wrong doings, HE will shelter you, and He will protect you, He will lift you up, HE will love you unconditionally and He will guide you even when you are not aware he is doing so. How wonderful HE is!

Also Tanya, you know your body, don't over exhaust yourself. You know the load, school load, work load, exercise load, ministry load, and your time with christ - now structure them accordingly. God knows your heart, he loves you but you have to be healthy in order to do your father's business, thus meaning taking care of your self.

Have a blessed day. God loves you and so do I
Your sister in Christ,
Nicole (NB)

I am praying in agreement and praying the same things for myself as well. That is so easy to fall into. May God give us more strength and encouragement.

Hello Tanya,

Oh, how I identify with your thoughts, situation, and disappointment. I know others do as well. My prayers will of course be with you, along with many many more who have been on the receiving end of your ministry these past months.

There are times in the lives of many believers and ministers when the Word becomes dry and we feel that God perhaps has moved away from us a little bit. Our flesh seems to get the better of us. I always come back to these well known scriptures to remind me that David and yes, even Jesus felt apart at times:

Psalm 22

1 My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring?
2 O my God, I cry in the day time, but thou hearest not; and in the night season, and am not silent.

Matthew 27

45 Now from the sixth hour there was darkness over all the land unto the ninth hour.
46 And about the ninth hour Jesus cried with a loud voice, saying, Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani? that is to say, My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?
47 Some of them that stood there, when they heard that, said, This man calleth for Elias.

Tanya, God will never forsake you, ever. The Lord will show you the path to refreshment. Some find it with other believers and some with solitude and quiet reflection and devotion time, or perhaps a combination of both. Know this though, He has never forsaken the cries of the righteous, as David so eliquently said:

Psalm 55

21 The words of his mouth were smoother than butter, but war was in his heart: his words were softer than oil, yet were they drawn swords.
22 Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.
23 But thou, O God, shalt bring them down into the pit of destruction: bloody and deceitful men shall not live out half their days; but I will trust in thee.

God Bless you, Tanya. Have a great weekend and allow the blessings of our prayers to flow over you.

Nick P.