On July 24th my youngest son died, he was 43 years old. He took his life.....I am in the darkest days of my life. I am a christian and I am trusting in the Lord, that He is in control, He loves me, and is working for my good. It is just the pain of losing a child and knowing that child was in such pain emotionally he lost the will to fight the good fight. Pray that we will not fail the Lord nor bring dishonor on the memory of my son by not carrying on and living in such a way that God will be glorified.
I know this pain will pass in time, but at the moment it is so intense that it feels as if I will die myself. I know better, but this is a time of unbelievable grief that I have never before encountered even though I have had losses of family and friends over the years. Pray for me and all the members of our family.

Oh Eternal and Sovereign God,
I lift this family up to you right now. Master I ask that you heal them from the pain they feel of losing their love one. I ask that you comfort them in the mist of their pain. Lord I ask that you reveal your plan for their lives and I ask that you reveal what/why this has happened. Master I ask that you do this right now. Lord I thank you for this mother and I thank you for the gift of a child. Lord please oh please be with my sister Mary. Master I have never experienced her pain but Lord please help her right now. Love we love you and we love Mary and we just ask that you comfort her right now. Amen

May Our Lord Jesus sustain you in your hour of grief.

Father we ask that You continue to give Mary the strength and wisdom that is needed right now. Father you are a just God. Father you are a loving God and the giver of wisdom. Bring Mary through this pain in a mighty way so that she can continue to experience the joy of being Your child. Father help her to properly mourn this loss and to share all her thoughts with you no matter how difficult they are. You know her needs and we ask that You meet them Father as you have all the love, strength, and wisdom that is needed at this time. In Jesus name, Amen

Mary,

Reading your post, it sounds like God has given you much wisdom through this situation. Stay strong my sister.


3Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. (2 Corinthians 1:3-4)

Oh, Dear Mary~I am at a loss. There are no words to describe my sorrow at what you are going through. I do not even want to allow myself to imagine your situation because just the thought is beyond my ability to bear. Please know, I am struggling to be with you in Spirit. I am asking the Lord for grace to share your sorrow and to intercede in your behalf. I know that our God is with us always especially in the midst of our grief; for He knows the sorrow of losing a son. And, you will find comfort in Him. Please also find comfort in knowing we will be bearing you to the Throne of Grace in prayer. May the God of all comfort, comfort you.

Father, God~there is nothing that compares to the loss of a son. And, to lose one because he has lost hope leaves us searching our hearts for answers. But, Lord, I ask that You give Mary assurance that even at the point of despair and even now, You are with her sweet child. You sent Jesus into the grave to preach to those who had not heard the good news; and, You have not changed. Your love transcends our understanding. Let her not draw any conclusions; but, rest in Your great love and trust in Your mercy. Grant that she may find hope in Your Word. We ask that You surround her with people to love her and to assist her. Grant that she may begin to look for others who feel no hope and to offer them the hope that is in Christ Jesus alone, and so to declare to Satan that he is not the Victor! We have hope in the resurrection, and hope in Your mercy, and hope in Your promises, and hope in Your perfect love. Bless Mary, now, Lord. And, we ask this in the Name of Your own precious Son. Trustworthy is our God!

Dear Heavenly Father,
Please watch over this family in this time of great loss! I know you will guard their hearts from terrible pain and ungodly thoughts. Lord God, you are the only one in control and help this family to see that and let them know it will be ok. Also show them that someone or something wonderful will come of this. Someone may get the chance to know you because of this tradgedy. Help his mother to keep her full trust in you and to love you because you are the only one who can fulfil all our desires, you are the one who comforts us when we are alone, you are the one who never leaves us, no matter how we may let you down, you forgive all our sins no matter what! Lord, just bless this family, because they need you more right now than ever! You are the salt and the light of the earth. Matthew 5:13-14~ I ask this of you in your Holy Name,
Amen

Love, April

Father, You know that it is only natural for Mary to mourn the loss of her son. And you know how incredibly hard it is right now. I am thankful she knows You as the awesome God You are, Who can bring help to her whenever it is needed. May she nestle in your arms of love and find her strength and comfort in You. May You be to her a hiding place where she can find comfort and release from her hurt. I pray You will help her discover ways to honor her son that will bring glory and honor to You as well. Be with her in the memory she will carry of her son in her heart, knowing that one day You will turn her memories and thoughts of him from mourning into dancing and You will someday bring joy back again to her broken heart. Give her strength for today and hope for tomorrow. Amen.

Mary, you will remain in my prayers.

Heavenly father, we lift up Mary to you now. You see the despondence that has overtaken her life with the untimely loss of her son.

Thank you oh Lord for her faith in You that comes from the unction of the Holy Spirit upon her. Her faith reaches out to each of us as we reach out to her and you at this painful time.

Grant her a peaceful and healing time of grief in her time of sorrow. Surround her with your hands of love as others reach out to help her. Sustain her health and grant her rest.

In Jesus name we pray, amen, amen.

MARY,

Father God,
We lift up this family to your everlasting arms, asking for comfort and healing as they mourn the death of their son. May your grace bring them through this as they lean on your word to get them through this lost. Give them courage to see through your eyes as the Holy Spirit works to mend their hearts.

I will be praying for your family!

Saviour,
Mary needs you right now. Lord, I ask that you touch her like you have never touched her before. She is needs to hear a word, she needs your strength, your comfortness, your gentleness, your unconditional love.

God, I ask that you protect and cover her and the family with peace. Put your loving arms around them and guide them where you want them to go.

We don't know why her son took his life, we don't know what pain he was in Father, but we know that your love and your mercy supercedes all in which he was going through. We know that we trust that he is with you on your right hand. We trust that you will show Mary your way. We trust that you even through this storm, that the sun will shine again within Mary. I thank you for her even seeking out for prayers as well as seeking you in the midst of adversity. We bind the principalities of darkness. We rebuke the spirits of depression, confusion, fustration and pain. These things are not of you, Jesus. We praise your Holy Name,
AMEN!

Be encourage, know that God is excellent, and your breakthrough is just around the corner!

NB

Mary -

First of all thank you for having the courage to share your testimony and need with all of us. Although what you are going through is tremendously difficult, God will pull you through because He loves you Mary.

Right now you are walking a path that seems incredibly dark, lonely and miserable. There are so many whys and hows. There are so many more questions than there are answers. It seems overwhelming. Where is the light at the end of the tunnel? Where is God in all of this?

Mary, God is calling to you and saying to fear not, for I am with you, be not dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you and I will uphold you with the right hand of My righteousness.

Sometimes Mary it seems like God isn't there, but He is Mary, He is. He promises you that He will never leave you nor forsake you. He says that He will be with you aleways, even unto the end of this age. But sometimes it seems that He comes in a cloud and that you cannot see His face, you cannot sense His presence. But He is there Mary He is.

Right now, through all of the pain and suffering that you are enduring throught this tremendous loss, is a time when you can really draw near to God. Draw near to Him Mary and He will draw near to you. That is His promise to you.

You need to know that you do not have to walk this path alone. God is with you. We are here for you too.

I enocurage you Mary to talk with God. I mean really talk with Him. Tell Him frankly and truthfully how and what you feeling. Scripture says that God desires truth in the inward parts. That a broken spirit and contrite heart He will not dispise. God wants you to get real with Him. I beleive that you will in time come to realize that dispite this horrible thing that has happened, God will use it for good to bring you to a new place in your relationship with Him. He will truly become Daddy to you and you will run to Him and talk to Him from your heart. Your level of relationship will deepen in ways you never thought possible.

Run to Him Mary, not in your strength, but in your weakness. Embrace the One who is strong and glory in His grace. He loves you, accepts you and longs to share in your hurt.

One thing I did Mary when I encountered my loss was to repeart over and over, out loud to God that "I trust you Lord." I didn't understand why it all happened, I still don't. I could see God in any of it and I didn't sense His presence, but I still told Him and believed that I had to trust Him. It built my faith and drew me closer to God than I have ever been. He will do the same for you Mary.

And in time, (I hated when people told me that it would take time...but it is true) you will discover that your heart is forever changed. You can become more compassionate, full of mercy and love towards other people. God will give you opportunities to minister to other hurting people. You will be able to tell them truthfully, that God is good and He is there to get you through this if you let Him.

Mary, He loves you so very much. He wants you to be whole again. He will fill the void in your heart if you ask Him to. It will be a fight, the good fight of faith, but beleive me Mary, something good can come out of this if you allow God to become a part of it and you chose to believe that He will.

I will continue to pray for you sister. You have touched my heart greatly. I know that pain that you are feeling and I am sorry that it is there. But you are an overcomer by the blood of Jesus and the words of your testimony. Use this to glorify His name.

We are here if you need us Mary. We love you.

Take care. Your brother,
Howard

Mary
I am deeply saddened by your son's death. I agree with the others on the board for God's comfort and grace to sustain you and your entire family. Psalm 23 says yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for thou art with me, thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. You are precious for holding on trusting God and wanting to honor him in this sad time. Your faith is strong and inspires me. May our love reach out to you and may God's presence be felt and you and your family comprehend God's love. May He lighten your hearts and give you hope.

I just want to thank all of you for being so kind and exhibiting the love of the Lord to me in this difficult time. God is being so good to me.....the hurt/pain is there, but the peace is there in abundance.
The Lord has spoken many things to me through this and I know there will be much fruit from what He is doing. It is not about me.....it is all about Him and His grace and mercy and blessing. He has a purpose in this way beyond this mother.....nothing in the life of His children is ever without a greater purpose. It is always for His glory and ultimately our good. 1 Cor. 13 is my theme right now.....the last verse, in particular.
May God bless you exceedingly abundantly as you are a blessing to others.....
Mary