to all: I have been separated from husband for 11mos now. I have prayed over our relation. often. I believe God has given me the ok to go on with my life cuz H. refuses to work on our R. So, I am asking for prayers for God's guidance through this mess. I want to put the past behind me. I also have an 11mo. old baby boy, that loves to see daddy. H. don't want responsibility for him or his other kids from prev. marriage. I can't do all the work. I am disabled and the more stress, the worse my illness. Please pray for H. also that God would open his heart and understanding that he will see the need for himself to change. I haven't closed the door on us completely, yet, I don't know how long I can wait for him to take responsibility for things. The R. has been stressful and abusive, not Physically. I need a new start. Thank you in advance.
Medikel

Dear Medikel,
I have been where you are; and, I know the stress and weariness that comes from being in limbo. I would suggest that you do step back from this. Give H to the Lord completely. Begin to look at your life as "you and your child". This doesn't mean "date". It means begin to live life as a single mom with a baby, with Jesus as Your husband. Begin to build yourself up in faith. Spend time resting in God's word. Find a mother's group and spend time with Christian mom's. Allow yourself to heal. There will be a day when God will either bring your husband to Himself and home to you; or, He will tell you it is time to sever the ties. You will know. It doesn't have to happen now, or tomorrow. You will now the time. My prayer for you is this:

Precious Father, You know the pain that Medikel has gone through and is going through now. You know she is weary and worn out from the struggle. Lift her burden, Lord. Grant her Your grace and peace to look beyond the relationship and into Your eyes. Help her to know that You have a future and a hope for her; a wonderful plan for her life (Jeremiah 29:11). Remind her that her value does not come from how human beings see her and treat her; but, from the fact that you created her for a very special role on this earth and as a part of Your Body. Bless her with joy, Lord. Bless her with hope. Bless her with friends. Take care of her every need. And, we will give You the praise, glory and honour due Your Holy Name! We ask this in the Name of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Amen

Just wanted to say a deepest thank you to the one who wrote to me with support and a prayer. I really needed that today. I pray God to keep you and bless you also. I really need the friends right now. I'm disabled and don't get out much. I hope God sends them my way. I pray God to take my Husband fully. I release him into God's able hands to do as He sees. Thank you for your sincerity.
Medikel

Dear Medikel, I know that when you "can't" get out, you become isolated. Please consider calling your church, or a nearby church if you do not have one. Ask that someone pick you up to attend services. If you have a phone, call and find out where there are mother's groups that meet. Ask if someone can assist you in getting there. You need fellowship and support. I am shy, so I know it is not easy; but, your life and the well-being of your child depend on your mental and emotional health. If you will begin to take even tiny steps toward something that will put you in a stronger position spiritually, physically and emotionally; you will find that you will feel much more in control"”much less beaten down and assaulted by the circumstances.

This situation may seem like a huge obstacle right now, Medikel; but, God has assured me these are not obstacles. They are "WayMarkers". They will guide us through this life, along the path He has chosen for us, if we will trust Him to do it. Please know I will be praying for you and thinking of you often. I have been through this; and, praise God, He brought me through in tact, and stronger than I was before. He is merciful and gracious! His love is never ending. He is faithful to His promises. He is tender and gentle. A bruised reed, He will not break. I want to give you one of my favorite verses because I think it may help you to see who loves you dearly:

Psalm 44
3 It was not by their sword that they won the land, nor did their arm bring them victory;
it was your right hand, your arm,
and the light of your face, for you loved them.

I love you, Medikel. The Body of Christ loves you. Jesus dearly loves you.

Father, enfold Medikel in Your arms today. Pour out Your love upon her. Grant her a sense of Your presence and the understanding of Your plan for her life. Help her to begin to praise You in this circumstance; because she can say without a doubt that Her redeemer lives. Act in her behalf. Bring blessings from unusual places so that she may know they come from Your Hand.

Look up, Medikel! Your redemption draweth nigh!

thank you T2. I am so thankful. God bless you and yours....Medikel

Hi Medikel,

You have found your prayer partner in T2 and so I stand in agreement with Terri and with you that the Lord will grace your situation with his Love, Grace and Mercy and that you will find rest in him for your life and your situation....and he will direct your steps every step of the way.

The Lord is with thee, take courage for he is not dead, he is alive and is working for you...please remember Jesus' answer is always Yes and Amen particularly when it is in agreement with God's will...

Stand firm, for the Lord and the Body of Christ are with you,

love and blessings in the Lord,

Serenity

Father, just a remembrance prayer today for Medikel, Please be with her and love her today. Pour Your Spirit upon her and bless her with hope. Please bring her someone to share with. Someone that knows You and loves You; and, can bring Your joy to her. Thank You for her hope, Lord. Thank You that she looks to You for strength. Please work in H today. Father, bring him to his senses. Grant him compassion for Medikel. Please Father, give her favor in his eyes. We love You, Lord; and, we look to You for deliverance. In Jesus Precious Name we pray, Amen.

Heavenly Father,

I stand in agreement with Terri, flood Medikel with your beautiful love and release her into Jesus' rest where she will enter and experience his liberty and love for her one hundredfold, in Jesus' name, amen

love and blessings in the Lord,

Serenity

Medikel,

Dear Lord, we come to you asking for your healing mercies. I pray that your anointing spirit would relieve her body from this illness bring her through by complete victory. I know you are capable of all we ask. Mend her heart and mind bring restoration to her spirit. We trust you are hearing are prayers and request.May you heal her heart from the pains of separation. God fill her life with your love. Bring wonderful Christain people in her life. I pray for your husband that the Lord would touch his heart and enter his soul.We give it to the Lord.

The bibles says, 7These have come so that your faith--of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire--may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. 8Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 1 Peter: 7-8.

thank you all for the prayers. I'm still holding on.
God bless you all
medikel

Medikel
I'm so sorry that you're having to go through this tribulation and trial. I will be praying for his salvation and a change of heart, especially toward his kids. May the Lord uphold you with His righteous right arm and seat you in the heavenly places with Christ Jesus, far above all principality and power. May healing be yours in Jesus name. " Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever." Hebrews 13:8