Family -

I desparately need your prayer support. As some of you know, last September my spouse left me for another after 25 years of marriage. It has been a tremendous struggle for me. I find myself still very much in love and desiring reconciliation. My heart is full of unanswered questions and a loss for understanding why this all happened.

Making this even more difficult is the fact that the "other" was supposed to be a friend of ours from church. They recently announced their engagement and are getting married in October. We all still attend the same church and I have been very quiet, respectful, and keeping my distance. Not confrontational at all. Believe me, I have wanted to run, but I do not get a release to leave.

There is a reason why for all of this, just not sure of it.

As scripture says, I try to trust God with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding. I try to acknowledge Him in all my ways knowing that then He will make my paths stright.

But sometimes, it still gets the best of me and I don't trust. I really need healing for my heart and mind. I don't know whether to give up all hope and just move on or believe that restoration is possible.

I need prayer and Godly direction as well as the peace of God to be restored in my life.

Your prayers and wisdom are much needed and desired.

I know that all of the details aren't here, but it really is too much for here. I also know that I am partially responsible for all of this mess as well. Hope that you can make since of all this rambling.

But, I also know that we took vows and made a covenant with God and each other to be one. This issue particularly is eating at me as I did not want to break my marriage vows or the covenant that we made with and to God. This issue is causing me great inner turmoil.

Thank you so very much. I need and appreciate your help and prayerful support. Bless each one of you.

Howard

Howard,

I believe God knows you faults and I'M SURE he has forgiven you! Remember he knows your heart and whats you to trust him with your life. He already has a plan for you not to harm you but a future full of hope. I pray that he opens the flood gate of your pain with joy and peace. You deserve peace. I will ask the Lord to intercede as we pray for you and your family!

Dear Lord give your son revelation of your plan for his life. May you heal and mend the cracks of his soul!!!

Love you brother!

Hold on to the grip of faith!

We are with you in prayer!!!!

Howard
I am sorry that you have to go through this. I am praying for you for encouragement and hope. I pray that you will persevere in faith and have wisdom and direction from God.
" for I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." Jerimiah 29:11 New King James v.

John & Grace -

Thank you so much for your prayers. I covet them and pray blessing on you as you stand with me in this time of uncertainty. God has blessed me with a wonderful family like you all.

Blessings,
Howard

Howard,
I really do not know what to say other than I feel your pain. I know that our father in heaven has his hands gentely on your and your sitatuation. I pray and ask him to reveal his perfect plan for your life.

Eternal and Holy Master, I come to you on behalf of my brother Howard. Lord right now it is not easy and it hurts, but I ask that you comfort him. Master please reveal to him your plan for his life. I ask that you reveal the purpose of what has happend to him. Master please do this for Howard right now. Precious God we need you. Precious God we love you. Please comfort us where there is pain and heal us were healing is needed. Lord we need your right now. You said we could call on you and we are calling on the name of JESUS. Oh bless you father for your healing power. Oh bless you for comforting us. Oh Lord thank you for your powerful hand that is moving in the mist as we pray. WE love you lord, we need you father and we thank you right now. amen

Tanya -

Thank you so very much!!! You and the others are right, He does have me and my situation held gently in His hand. I also am learning that God must be doing a new thing and somehow, someway He wants me to be a part of it. I just need to look for His hand in all of this.

My struggle truly is the fact that God hates divorce. And I cannot believe that something He detests would be a part of His ultimate plan for me. But, I also know that He is not responsible for our decisions.

It seems as though I may be experiencing a little bit of a parallel of Joseph's life when things didn't go well for him after being sold into slavery, wrongly accused, thrown into prison, and then forgotten about for several years. I want to be able to keep my faith and watch my character grow into a Godly man and then finally be able to say "what you had meant for evil, God had meant for good". What a powerful testimony.

I really love and appreciate each and every one of you.

What a gift from God you all truly are.

Howard

Howard,
I too have been married for 26 years. I stand with you on the sincerity and faithfulness of your vows. I too hold true to these. Because it was a promise I made to God. I cannot imagine how you must feel. I would be hurt, confused, and feel abandoned. But remember Jesus is there with you! He is right beside you. He loves you! “I am your Creator. You were in my care even before you were born. (Isaiah 44:2) This is a tough time. This is a storm that is shaping you to His will. We do not always understand the direction God moves, but we must have faith in Him that He knows what is best for us. We must let Him guide our life. Have faith! Jesus said, “In this world you will have trouble, but have faith, I have over come this world.”
Hold fast to Him, my brother. Let the Lord know how you feel. Tell Him of your anger, pain, and injustice. He already knows, He knows what is in your heart, so you might as well tell Him. I will be praying for you.
Father God, I lift up your child Howard, grant him peace and understanding. Lead him Lord to know your will for him. Bless him Lord. Wash his eyes so that he may see clearly what it is that you have for his life. Keep his heart soft so as not to be hateful or vengeful. Father we ask this Your Son’s Holy Name. Amen!

My salvation and my honor depend on God. He is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.
(Psalm 62: 7-8)

And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.
(Colossians 3:14-17)

To the Glory of Jesus Christ,
Brian

Brian -

Thank you my brother for the words of encouragement and your heartfelt prayer. Cannot begin to tell you how helpful your words as well as the others here have been to me.

Many of the things you said express my heart towards this whole situation too. I do not want an angry or bitter heart. But one that is drawn even closer to Him. More than anything I want someday to hear Him says that I too was a man after His own heart.

Beginning to understand that all of this pain and suffering is going to change me and if I let it, it will be for the good. It is all about my choice to be obedient and willing to submit to His will for my life.

Your words of encouragement, hope and faith are appreciated so very much. They blessed and helped me greatly.

Prayers continue to be lifted up for Susie, you and your family knowing and expecting that God's perfect will for you all will be manifested soon. He loves all of you so very much.

Know my brother, that even though I may be in a storm, I stand with you in faith through yours and Susie's as well.

Be abundantly blessed,
Howard