I pray that the Lord will heal our marriage to Him and then as a couple. We have listened to many others advice and what has been said does not match up with the Word of God. The Word of God is all I have. It has never failed me. I lost my job and am having many challenges in finding employment. Until then I help those I can when I can, since I do not have transportation any more. It has been a test of faith and as much as I feel like giving up, God won't let me. He has been ever so faithful to provide me with all I need. My husband supports our family financially, in addition to other family members who are led from time to time. While I am appreciative, I need encouragement within. It appears that I am often led to encourage so many, yet no one aids me. That's fine, if I could just accept what thus says the Lord. I am learning to be content. Pray that I endure the lot for my life in Christ.

Also, I had friends who stcuk beside me until I fell from grace. I began to live a life out of God's will and when I needed them the most, the marjority where guide by immature christians to abandon me. I had done nothing worng to any of them nor was I wanting any of them to agree with the sins I committed, but I did need life support. I found out that can only come from God. In my pressing on the Lord restored me, yet I was bitter from the neglect I was given by the saints who were very speechless to witness the Lord deliverance in my life. I was apart of their daily talk, as a song. I accepted my wrong in how I mistreated them and began to share with others how cunning the devil can be. I am the person whom from a child, never met a stranger. People spoke of my smile, but because of my lack of trust in people. I think I am over cautious about friends. I know what proverbs speaks of friends, but in all honesty, I know I am very ery very hesitant. There are people, especially women who befriend my husband but are reclutant to me...well I've been "stabbed by friends and bitten by snakes" so I fear building friendships. I know fear is not of God and that forgiveness is when I can deal with others as have doen no worng.

PLEASE HELP ME OVERCOME THESE AREAS SO I CAN HELP OTHERS SEE CHRIST,

Please focus on God.Jeremiah 29:11 God has good plans for your life.